The first of the new year

So what a long strange but rewarding life I've had. I look forward to much more and am ready to make some changes in my life. I'm tired of being overweight. I'm ready to make a change. I've always been ready but never fully ready. I hope to keep up the motivation that I have right now. I'm looking forward to a cruise this fall with friends and we're looking to start another addition to the family this fall as well. I'd like to be more physically ready for both of those.

I want to make this pregnancy go much smoother. I know I had no control over the pre eclampsia that I had with Greyson but I can't help but feel guilty that had I followed my doctor's suggestion and lost some weight that maybe things might have been different. But then I think about the lady I met in the NICU that sat across from me who was thin and active and still had the same exact thing I had. I'm crossing my fingers that I won't experience that again and I pray that this next baby will have a smooth transition into this world.

I can't wait till the cruise, but the last thing I want to do is cover up my bathing suit because I'm fat and don't want to be seen. With our friends there, it will make me very aware that my fat is exposed. So I'm hoping to lose some of that if not most of it by this fall so that I'll be more comfortable.

So welcome to the beginning of my weight loss journey. It WILL be a bumpy and long, winding road. I'll have missteps and lots of excuses, but I hope that this journal will help me with why I eat what I do and when I do. I hope to deal with issues I may be hiding because I don't want to deal with them. I'm just being upfront about my shenanigans, so if you'd like to jump ship now, feel free, if not, then welcome aboard matey!